The Living~Dying Duet: Living and Dying were Dancing a Duet, and I was Playing the Music

The Three of Us Together: I Learned to Play the Music while Living and Dying Danced

My life has become a Living~Dying Duet. Living and dying were dancing, each according to their own steps and at the same time finding a flow to make it a Duet. This was happening within my life so I felt that I was somehow involved, but joining their dance was beyond me.

The more they danced, the more I felt my role develop. I felt them dancing but it wasn't one-directional. Their dance was having a big impact on my life, but I could play music that could affect their dance. If I was frightened and glum, dying would take the lead as it had done for the period after my diagnosis with Early-Stage Dementia. On the other hand if I felt the new dimensions they were bringing to my life, they would dance together in ways that I could find beautiful. The music I played affected their dance.

Or, perhaps that's not right. Perhaps the music I played affected me and had no influence on them. The difference between these didn't matter -- I was struggling to find a way to live with this horrible condition and playing the music I chose was helping me.